thescientificmethods said: Why not go? [to costa rica]
feels irresponsible, like I should be spending my summer making money, not hedonistically exploring the world.
thescientificmethods said: What’s the grant for?
Community outreach to promote self-directed learning paths for high-school students that are struggling to cope/maintain enthusiasm in that environment/market research for and advertising for the construction of a center for self-directed teen learning in the area.
oh hey look i got awarded a $5,000 dollar grant to do what i keep saying i want to do…. now why am i not ecstatic?
a state of mind in which self-deception is seamlessly joined with one’s perception of reality.
so yesterday i turned down an opportunity to go to the netherlands and today an old friend randomly asks me to accompany them in central america for a month over the summer. what is going on? I feel like a fat kid trying to exert self control at the dessert bar.
I just came so close to spending 6,000 dollars on a study abroad program in Amsterdam over the summer.
who am I kidding?
The app “Self Control” is going to save my life.
"We all look for happiness, but without knowing where to find it: like drunkards who look for their house, knowing dimly that they have one."
"It is not work that kills men; it is worry. Work is healthy; you can hardly put more upon a man than he can bear. Worry is rust upon the blade. It is not the revolution that destroys the machinery but the friction."
— Henry Ward Beecher
"It takes time to live. Like any work of art, life needs to be thought about."
— Albert Camus, A Happy Death
(Fuente: sisyphean-revolt, vía fuckyeahexistentialism)